sinus headache and sin....

[Nika]

I had/have a cold, and it is REALLY getting stuck up in my sinus cavity, up BEHIND my eyes, so that it hurts at my brow, do you know that nagging dull throb that I mean? It is horrible, I can sort of breath, but not with much vigor, and always is this FULL feeling in my head, like at ANY moment all my teeth will POP out because the ooze of buggers is just growing and infesting my secret spots just behind my face... You can't see it, but it is SO right there, just in front of you if you were looking at me...... really it is, I know, I live just behind that face you'd see....
And my sin is JUST like that... sitting there lurking, occassionally, there was a moment of total sneezing fit, but now, it is just STUCK UP THERE. Perhaps because the Holy Spirit is in me, maybe because I KNOW what it means to be FREE to breath... but I just do NOT want to live like this... No, I remember doing this phase of a cold as a kid, and thinking, "well, at least it isn't constantly running anymore, I can breath... sort of, this is great, who cares about the head ache, I'll take meds and make it go away....."

But now... NOW, I don't want to mask it with drugs, or chocolate, or feel good Christianity that tells me my sin is not really sin, NO I do NOT want my sin STUCK up in me any more than I WANT my sinus cavity filled with ICK!!!! I want to be FREE, free of buggers, free of SIN, free from all that holds me CAPTIVE! FREE! Patrick Henry said it so eloquently.... "Give me LIBERTY or give me death!"

so I am washing myself in the word..... and doing the netipot... (a cool pot filled with warm saline that you put to your nose to cleanse your nasal cavity out from the inside out) scrubbing under my fingernails, my ears, and my eyes, all points of entry!

I am praying ceaselessly...... and downing a LOT of vitamin C

I am grabbing on to GRACE and praising GOD for it, .... and taking lots of naps and being ok with the mounting laundry pile and the to do list for school

I am thanking Jesus for MERCY and trying to spread it around my house, while disinfecting with lysol wipes (mock costco versions) as I go

and I am sharing the Love of Christ by NOT going to Women's bible Study tonight and sharing my cold....

I am trying to be loving..... though this is NOT Easy for me... as my whole self feels achy and icky and un lovely....
so I go back to GRACE and TA DAH !
that is how SIN is not unlike a SINUS headache!